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心理不平衡？

胡思乱想？

误会了？

想太多了。。。

好可笑。。。

sensitive

it is tt time of the year where we get paid our vb.. payout was a little lower than my expectations but still ok..

some pple got promoted n some received less than average payout..

some happy, some pissed.. so how do u deal w this situation? i m stuck in the middle..

seriously, she definitely deserved more than wat she got.. kinda makes me feel if it is really worth putting in so much effort... will i end up like her? i m sure she feels cheated.. :(

mixed feelings..

7 more days...

having mixed feelings.. feeling a bit scared, a little excited and also hope it faster ends so i can share my experience with my friends and family over the CNY period..

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bah..

things that happened yesterday that irritated me..

1. was at bbq at my friend's place and when she realised she forgot to pack certain items, she looked at me and said, why didn't i reminded her about it?

2. someone commented that i had money.. i was rich.. it's meant to be a joke but i didn't find it funny..

3. my friend, for the umpteen time, called me by a nickname which she created for me and which i have told her many times before, that i absolutely HATE that nickname..

4. felt sick again and i think it's cos of the virus at home when SOMEBODY coughs without covering his mouth with a tissue/ hanky/ whatever..

so do i have the right to be pissed off?

1. seriously, why do i need to REMIND her to bring certain things for the bbq? this is the third bbq at her house! so is it my fault that she forgot to pack certain things? and she didn't say it in a joking manner.. i really felt like screaming at her when she said that..

2. so since i was the only one who brought the wallet to the pit area (the rest left theirs at my friend's house), i passed my wallet to her so she could buy the things she forgot to pack along.. and 2 things.. first, when she came back, she didn't even have the courtesy to tell me how much she spent.. then when i sms her today, she said she left the receipt in my wallet.. duh~ second, i said someone commented that i was rich right? being generous DOES NOT mean someone is RICH.. similarly, being STINGY DOES NOT MEAN someone is POOR.. asshole.. i HATE IT when pple say all i have is money.. IDIOT!

3. i have specifically told this friend of mine that i hate to be called by that name.. MANY TIMES.. but she still does it! WHY? HOW THE HELL I KNOW! why do people like to irritate the hell out of me? and i told her VERY SERIOUSLY that it really gets on my nerves and ask her to STOP calling me by that name.. just because she finds the name ok DOES NOT MEAN I DO TOO! blooDY iDIOT.

4. just because i'm younger than you doesn't mean i am less sensible than you.. sometimes people should stop being so stubborn and take a look at themselves.. think over their actions and stop being so unreasonable to others..

sometimes i really wonder if i have any true friends at all.. it's such a sick world out there..

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feeling down..

为什么

为什么觉得好像被欺骗的感觉？

为什么常常有这种感觉？

问题出现在我的身上吗？

为什么人总是不能真诚的对待别人？

是我太天真了吗？还是问题真的出现在我的身上？？

我好累。。。 每次要求的太多。。。得到的总是是失望。。。

i need to breathe

BAD DAY!

first, i think somehow or other, the water from my water bottle spilled out.. and my WHOLE bag was like a river.. i didn't even realise it until i get up from my seat in the bus and my left front thigh was WET. doesn't help that i was wearing a light coloured pants so the wet mark was REALLY obvious!!! my bag was a little water resistance so the water in the bag wasn't really dripping so i faster headed to my office's gym's toilet cos got hair dryer there.. i emptied my bag and pour out at least half a cup of water!! seriously, almost my entire water bottled was emptied!!! irritating shit man..

and today's probably the busiest day in my work life.. SUPER BUSY.. running here and there to test stuff.. researching info for one of my bosses who is going overseas next week.. it was madness.. and stupid client!! i'm beginning to dislike him.. seriously.. it's getting a bit too much!

went back slightly late today.. and i thought i secured the plastic box tightly.. placed it in my bag.. and when i came home, the liquid from the inside the box actually leaked out!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN SUAY LOH!!! WAH PIANGZ! TWICE! somemore the liquid this time was sweet liquid.. from my agar agar.. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. can't believe it.. stupid duper IRRITATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i haven't been sleeping well recently.. when i go to bed early, i end up waking up at about midnight.. else, i wake up before my alarm rings.. i don't feel dead at work cos i'm occupied.. but still.. i'm still VERY worried about my event on tues.. first, we were worried about too few people signing up.. and now, we have overwhelming response!!! more than capacity.. can only hope that some of them don't turn up.. fingers, legs crossed.. ARGH.. the more i think of this.. the more i'm irritated with the other side.. really eating me up!

hope i can sleep well tonight..