i'm leaving... with a heavy heart...
finally got the diagnosis today..
pretty bad news.. worse of all, it's some uncommon kind of cancer..
i guess we all felt the same way.. all three of us stood there.. all slient.. while she was the only one asking the doc qns.. i guess we literally froze when we heard the news..
i googled.. it's very aggressive.. v uncommon.. and seriously, even the doc is baffled at how she kena it.. it's just not justifiable! life's just so unfair..
she's really strong.. told me to go for my trip and dun worry.. dad told me the same thing later in the night.. "go have fun..." he said.. noticed i didn't use an exclaimation mark.. they all wanted me to stop worrying and just go.. and like i said, i will be leaving but with an extremely heavy heart..
i told one of my tourmates of the news.. she asked if i still have the mood to have fun.. well, what can i do? i told her not to talk about it during the trip.. afterall, life goes on right?
have prepared myself for the worst.. i almost teared when we walked out of the doc's room.. but thankfully i managed to control.. i was really quiet.. didn't want to say much.. also no mood to say anything..
all the feeling inside me now.. the moment i think about the future, i start to tear.. holding it all back know.. just dunno when it'll just burst out..
hope this trip will help brighten my mood a little.. and when i'm back, i have a clearer mind to steer the family ahead..
pretty bad news.. worse of all, it's some uncommon kind of cancer..
i guess we all felt the same way.. all three of us stood there.. all slient.. while she was the only one asking the doc qns.. i guess we literally froze when we heard the news..
i googled.. it's very aggressive.. v uncommon.. and seriously, even the doc is baffled at how she kena it.. it's just not justifiable! life's just so unfair..
she's really strong.. told me to go for my trip and dun worry.. dad told me the same thing later in the night.. "go have fun..." he said.. noticed i didn't use an exclaimation mark.. they all wanted me to stop worrying and just go.. and like i said, i will be leaving but with an extremely heavy heart..
i told one of my tourmates of the news.. she asked if i still have the mood to have fun.. well, what can i do? i told her not to talk about it during the trip.. afterall, life goes on right?
have prepared myself for the worst.. i almost teared when we walked out of the doc's room.. but thankfully i managed to control.. i was really quiet.. didn't want to say much.. also no mood to say anything..
all the feeling inside me now.. the moment i think about the future, i start to tear.. holding it all back know.. just dunno when it'll just burst out..
hope this trip will help brighten my mood a little.. and when i'm back, i have a clearer mind to steer the family ahead..
