mood swing?

went to a bb shower today.. though there were a group of us, for some reason, i felt out of place.. everyone either had their husband with them or they just simply blend in.. by blending in, i mean playing with another one of my friends' bb.. not bored.. shared common topic.. somehow, i just felt, well, bored.. i have another bb shower to attend next sat and already i can feel i'll be more comfortable with the crowd there.. this is strange cos i actually feel closer to people whom i know for say 5 years as compared to people whom i know since more than 15 years ago.. hv i changed? or have they changed? both perhaps.. but the more i think about it, the "sadder" the picture is.. i guess this is what they mean by as one grow older, one have lesser and lesser friends.. probably we each hv different interests.. and nobody really talks about work.. even if we did, we didn't really understand (or bother to understand) what each of us were doing.. unless for some who works in the same industry.. their lives seem so colorful and fulfilling.. they're all successful in their career.. even those who hate their jobs are earning a respectable salary.. they are able to spend without having to think much..

one of them "congratulated" me on having "upgraded" my phone to a touch-screen one.. it sounded damn sarcastic.. but knowing her personality, she was just being direct.. i'm not offended by what she said though i can't help but being slightly affected.. then again, that's just my character.. prob overly-sensitive..

to be honest, i was really looking fwd to today but now that it has passed, i'm just glad it's over..