so qiao?

and i thought it'll be the last time i see him..

saw him at the market this morning.. i'm quite sure he saw me too but he looked away quite naturally which probably means he didn't recognise me..

could it be he's still staying with his parents in the area or has he bought a flat there?

i didn't call him.. cos i already felt i made a fool of myself that time..

and just yesterday, i met one of my ex-colleague.. she and her bf moved to somewhere near my neighbourhood.. really so qiao.. but i'm not really on the same freq as her? we don't hv common topic.. frankly speaking, i wouldn't call her if i see her on the streets...

i think the biggest problem with me is that i avoid situations when i'm uncomfortable with it.. i know there's no escaping everything but i can't help it.. sometimes i just wish i can fast forward my life.. grow up faster.. grow old.. and just die peacefully.. then i dun need to face the world any more..

either that, or will someone just give me a life manual?